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[Saturday
February 11th, 2006
9:47am] |
it's official... i've pretty much abandoned livejournal. sorry kids:-\ i will leave you forever with one last note...
i HAVE THE MOST AMAZiNG BOYFRiEND ANYONE COULD EVER ASK FOR!!! ...be jealous
goodbye:0)
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[Saturday
December 17th, 2005
11:25am] |
Stolen from Christopher
January- Some Changes Need To Be Made In This New Year...
February- We obviously have our ups and downs... but so far this week, im sinking further and further into the deepest hole.
March- Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot
April- CaptKeen820: you and unc can suck my dick
puresunshine1389: at least then MSU wont be the only thing SUCKiN
puresunshine1389: DAMN
CaptKeen820: fuck you :)
May- i ain't never seen an ASS LiKE THAT ♥
June- i no longer feel obligated to write in this thing everyday. notice? lol. Things arent great. but how often is everything great all at one time?
July- In My arms In my mind all the time I wanna keep you right by my side till I die im gonna hold you down and make sure everything is right wit you You can never go wrong if you LET ME HOLD YOU!
August- Summer is DUNZO:(
September- She's never pulled anyone from a burning building
October- Happy Sweetest Day!!!!( i have the best boyfriend everrrrr! )
November- i keep reading these things on Myspace and such about Love.
December- And this is December!
So... as a wrap up
i've pretty much abandoned LJ:-\
and i've been deminished to zero depth what-so-ever
How cool am i.
Oh well...According to October i have the best boyfriend ever.
and it's SOOOOOO true. so i don't care about anything else! :)
i LOVE MAH BABAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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[Tuesday
November 15th, 2005
8:40pm] |
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i keep reading these things on Myspace and such about Love. Seems so many people are in love these days. "Love is getting shy and nervous around the person". That's so far from the truth. Not to say i'm any more in love than anyone else may be, but, i don't agree at all. Correct me if i'm wrong, but i believe Love is the exact opposite. Love is when you're so comfortable with the other person that the MOST embarrassing things could happen and it's nothing more than a laugh. I mean yeah there is that stage where you get shy and you get butterflies. And in all honesty, the butterflies never truely go away, but the shyness does. Once you get used to a person and you get comfortable with them, nothing else really matters, you finally feel comfortable being yourself and not having to worry about judgements. You don't have to look perfect all of the time and it's okay to act goofy. That's love. It's easy to confuse love with lust. But.. i'm no longer confused. I haven't been for quite a while. I am absolutely 100% so completely and RiDiCULOUSLY iN LOVE with my BEST FRiEND! John... you're the one i wanna be with for the rest of my life. i love you x942385934859324758937425892375325 and that's NEVER gunna change. 11 days... til 7 months. ha:)
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[Thursday
September 1st, 2005
3:22pm] |
She's never pulled anyone from a burning building
She's never rocked Central Park to a half a million fans, screaming out her name
She's never hit a shot to win the game
She's never left her footprints on the moon
She's never made a solo hot air balloon ride, around the world,
No, she's just your everyday average girl (but)
She's somebody's hero
A hero to her baby with a skinned up knee
A little kiss is all she needs
The keeper of the cheerios
The voice that brings Snow White to life
Bedtime stories every night
And that smile lets her know
She's somebody's hero
She didn't get a check every week like a nine-to fiver
But she's been a waiter, and a cook and a taxi driver
For twenty years, there at home, until the day her girl was grown
Giving all her love to her was her life's ambition
But now her baby's movin' on, and she'll soon be missin' her
But not today, those are tears of joy runnin' down her face
She's somebody's hero
A hero to her daughter in her wedding dress
She gave her wings to leave the nest
It hurts to let her baby go down the aisle she walks right by
Looks back into her mother's eyes
And that smile lets her know
She's somebody's hero
Thirty years have flown right past
Her daughters' starin' at all the photographs
Of her mother, and she wishes she could be like that
Oh, but she already is
She's somebody's hero
A hero to her mother in a rockin' chair
She runs a brush through her silver hair
The envy of the nursing home
She drops by every afternoon
Feeds her mama with a spoon
And that smile lets her know
Her mother's smile lets her know
She's somebody's hero
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[Sunday
August 28th, 2005
2:47am] |
Happy Four Months Babay!!!!
So the 4 month mark has just passed and without hesitation i can honestly say that it has been the best four months of my life. Sure, there have been stupid, petty fights, there have been tears, and there have been sleepless nights. But above all... there has been love. Baby, i'm sure you're aware of this already... but i want to make SURE you know how much you mean to me. You've become my best friend, my life. Waking up in the morning wouldn't have a purpose without you. Sure, i got along fine before i knew you... but i didn't know what i was missing. If i was to lose you... my life would be over. You're the closest thing to perfect i've ever seen and i'm willing to give up everything i have if it means that i'll be with you forever. You're all i need. And you're all i want. you and me. forever. things have been hard, but waking up and knowing i have you... makes everything seem so much easier. Things are never going to stop being hard. And the day will probably come, when something will make it hard for us to be together. But im not going anywhere. I'll always be right by your side, fighting through everything with you. I hope i help you and make an impact on your life even 1/100 as much as you do on mine. Because even that would be more significant than i could ever hope for. I love you so much John Samuel Delia... and NOTHiNG will ever change that. it's you and me forever babay!! 4//27//05 ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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[Tuesday
August 23rd, 2005
12:25pm] |
Summer is DUNZO:(
I didn't get drunk. I didn't sneak out. I barely went to any parties. I didn't go up north. I didn't break curfew... and Summer '05 was still absolutely amazing. Hard to imagine, i know.
Junior year started today. Everything was really good and i'm relatively happy with most of my classes, but things are still gunna be really different this year. The fact that i once called Hillary my best friend and now as we pass eachother in the halls we force our smiles and barely exchange "hi's" is good enough to tell me that there are some things i need to change. I mean, it's okay that i've drifted from my friends. I've had wonderful experiances with them and i'm thankful for that... but i'm really excited to meet new people, and get closer to people that i've been talking about hanging out with forever. This year is going to be good. Saturday is FOUR months for John and i... i love him so much. He's gunna make this year even better.
Anyways... i hope everyone had a wonderful first day back!
♥
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[Saturday
August 20th, 2005
10:47pm] |
it's so amazing how you can be so blind about something for so long. You have this image built up in your head about how something should be and it's like it almost covers up what's actually there. Then one day the truth comes out. it's not like it's anything new... you've just... woken up. And then, you feel like a dumbass for not seeing it earlier. Goddddd... i hate people sometimes.
Anyways... i love mah babayyyy!!!!
and school starts in 2 days. woo. not.
♥
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[Thursday
August 11th, 2005
3:48pm] |
iT'S FiXED!!!
.FiRST SEMESTER.
Beckman
Byrd
Murphy
Moore
Kuslits
Krussel
.SECOND SEMESTER.
Byrd
Desilets
Krussel
Moore
Miesch
Ridgway
OHHHHHkayyyyy. it's all better now. Let me know=)
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[Thursday
August 4th, 2005
12:07pm] |
just letting everyone know i'm alive
like you care:)
i never have anything to update about.
i've been doing a lot... but when i finally get a break [which isn't often] i don't feel like sitting here, thinking about everything i've done. I'd rather go do the things i want to do before summer slips away... which it's doing right now!!!!! BYE!♥
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[Wednesday
July 27th, 2005
12:44am] |
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everyone seems like they're getting so much closer to all of their friends this summer and it's awesome to see. Of course i've been hanging out with John alot which is absolutely amazing. I love him so much and i love being with him more than anything. I mean, sure we fight a lot... but usually it only makes me appreciate him more and it makes me more cautious of the things i do. Tomorrow is 3 months. It seems like so much longer. I never thought i'd feel this strongly about someone after only 3 months. Its crazy and i love it. and i love him=) mmm.
I just got some wisdom teeth out today so vicadin is like my best friend right now. yummmm. yea, that and the couch... which is where im headed.
♥
( EDiT: )
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[Thursday
July 21st, 2005
4:17pm] |
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i've become a mean and bitter person. i used to be really happy... i did. Now it's like i don't care about anything. Every time i want to do something, i get so much shit for it that it's just not even appealing anymore and i'd rather just sit in a dark corner somewhere and blank everything out. i hate everything sometimes and its horrible. It sucks to feel like nothing good is going for you and no matter how many people claim to be your best friend, you feel alone, because you know that no one really knows you. Im so sick of feeling like this. And there is only one reason... and that would be my father. I hate him. Trust me, you hate him to. I can't stand when people are like "oh you love him". Hell NO i don't. When someone makes you this miserable, for this long... even unconditional love begins to fade. Lately, i don't have that much love to share and im not gunna waste it on people whom don't deserve it. Im so sickkkkkkkkkk of being this person. I want to be happy again and i want to be the one that makes other people happy when they're sad. I hate bringing other people down with my shit moods and i wish i could help it but i cant. It's like im turning into this horrible person and i'm trying so hard to stop it before i fully morph into this bitter bitch i'm becoming! AHHHH!!!! VENTiNG!!!!!
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[Sunday
July 17th, 2005
7:08pm] |
it breaks my heart to know that things are back to normal... but they may never be the same. a lot of things seemed perfect finally but of course nothings perfect and the world has bitches that work their way into other peoples business and fuck up lives. thanks guys:). love you too! Things are gunna work out, because they always do and they always will. When things are MEANT to be a certain way... thats how they'll end up. and this was meant to be. So im not all that worried to be honest. i love you
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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[Saturday
July 16th, 2005
11:33am] |
new layout!
im trying to figure out how to change "calender, userinfo..." into different words. if any one knows, please let me know! thanks=)
anyways... do you like it?
i dont know if i do yet.
maybe?
♥
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[Wednesday
July 13th, 2005
3:57pm] |
okay so for a real update, apparently it's past due.
Things, on the outside seem really good. I mean, when i look at myself in certain situations... i know ive grown and learned. i love that i have a lot more fun lately and even if i said i didnt care before... ive been completely 100% carefree lately. Things with my dad still suck but im finally getting used to it. Between 3 jobs and friends... im not really home very much at all. Which isnt a bad thing.
Ive been talking to Christian and Greg a lot which is really cool. i miss all those kids... i still havent made it up to Oscoda=\ no time. i hope i go before the end of summer though because that would absolutely MAKE my summer. It wouldnt be complete with out the anual trip.
When i go home at night and im alone, its wierd... because nothing will be that bad, but ill just want to cry. i hate it... because i like being "strong"... i like helping other people... not needing to be helped. hopefully its just a stage and ill get over it.
anyways... kind of a long entry.
now i gotta go get ready for work.
hope everyone's summer is going well=)
♥
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[Wednesday
July 13th, 2005
12:51pm] |
In My arms In my mind
all the time I wanna
keep you right by my side
till I die im gonna
hold you down and make sure
everything is right wit you
You can never go wrong if you
LET ME HOLD YOU!
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[Monday
June 27th, 2005
10:19pm] |
I close my eyes
Thought I was lost but I was stranded
I go outside
To my surprise the sky had landed
I thought it made more sense
If I could only keep you guessing
I was a fool to think
That I should stop you from undressing
Now I'm believing all the words you say
That I can't say back to you
To you
So I fall
I don't want to feel this small
You know I just can't handle this
Handle this at all
And I'll just fall
I let my heartbeat drop
I faulter as the music stops
And you watch me as I stall
And wonder when I fall
I kiss your neck
I feel you breathing on my shoulder
Still I'm perfect
It must be you cause now it's over
I was so close
That was the most that I have ever been through
Now old cassettes and cigarettes
Will be the ones to save you
How can you ask for me to stay
When all you ever do is go?
Just go
♥
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[Sunday
June 12th, 2005
3:43pm] |
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1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
2. I will then tell what song reminds me of you.
3. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be.
4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
6. I will tell you what color you remind me of.
7. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. Put this in your journal.
( i am sweet! )
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[Sunday
June 12th, 2005
9:59am] |
ive been writing a lot lately. i used to all the time... it was my only way of venting. Then, a few things happened and i didnt even want to write. it was like leaving myself a copy of all the shitty things going on so that i can go back at a later date, read it, remember it, and then cry about it. pass. So now i thought of a win win situation. i write them, read them, then get rid of them. it kind of sucks because a lot of them are really good. but... i just dont feel like reflecting on bad stuff. especially since summer is finally here. it hasnt fully sunk in that i dont have to wake up tomorrow to go to school. i cant wait for this summer to get kicked off though. i can tell its going to be absolutely amazing. im pretty sure i had a nice little preview last night. i hope so anyways.
People are really pissing me off lately... i hate hipocrites more than anything. i know that everyone can be at some point... but after a while... it gets ridiculous. whatever. im not gunna care... nothings ruining this summer.
♥
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[Thursday
June 9th, 2005
9:21pm] |
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
i dont know whats wrong with me.
one more day...
Summer cures anything...
Let's hope=\
♥
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